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December 24th | 10:04am
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I don't use this much, anymore. I don't ever have anything I feel the need to write.
Dustin and I are done, and I've got a new man.
Lyss, Shane, Tony, and the rest of the people in that group, minus christina are no longer friends.
Excuse me. I "up and left" Shane, Tony, and all them. I don't need people in my life who have to put people down to have fun. Fuck 'em. I don't even care.
Oh, and Alissa, I can shake my ass as much as you want me to, darling.
My Christmas is going to own ass. I picked out the majority of my presents, most of which are nice, and expensive. My cousins are coming down from NC, and i'm pretty psyched to see them. I'm just not too excited about another holiday without my grandpa. But, I'm sure all of the good things that are going on will override that.
peace.
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Sunday
December 9th | 11:19am
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if strangers meet
life begins-
not poor not rich
(only aware)
kind neither
nor cruel
(only complete)
i not not you
not possible;
only truthful
-truthfully,once
if strangers(who
deep our most are
selves)touch:
forever
(and so to dark)
-E.E. Cummings.
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Thursday
December 6th | 5:10pm
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Wednesday
December 5th | 4:26pm
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I went to FCA this morning. It's the Fellowship of Christian Athletes. It's basically a mini church service in the gym, haha. Dustin's been talking about religion a lot lately, and I actually miss going to Church, and being apart of something, so, I decided to go. I was hesitant at first, but after I got there, I was pretty psyched. It was just weird doing the whole church thing. I'm glad I did it, though. I got saved again, too =]
I think doing this will be good for me.
My seven months is on Saturday., and Dustin's coming with my dad, Taylor, and I out to Eustus to get a Christmas tree. I'm pretty psyched =]
"You are my baby love
you make the sun come up
you're my everything;
That I could ever dream of"
mm. I love love
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Thursday
November 29th | 3:14pm
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I've got so much going on right now, that I don't even know where to start.
I'm doing pretty good in school at the moment. My grades are almost up to C's, minus 2 classes, and I've got 2 B's :] I'm really hoping to have C's before Christmas break, because if my parent's wait until Report cards, I'm scared that my semester exams will bring those grades down, and I won't be able to get my license, or my car. But, they know I'm doing good; studying; and doing my homework, and they're constantly checking my grades. I dunno.
Mine, and Dustin's 7 months is coming up on the 8th. A week and a half away, and It'll be here. I'm excited. We've decided to not have sex for a while, either. Our relationship is doing just fine without it, and we don't want to mess things up by getting that much more emotionally attached to each other. Plus, I'm really not ready to do it. I don't take sex lightly.
I've come to learn that some people who I thought were my friends, don't even like me. I was told that it's because I'm annoying, and they know me too well. It kind of stung to hear that. I mean, I know I'm annoying, and a lot of people get the wrong impression of me if they don't know me very well, but these people have known me for 3 years now. I guess they're just too used to me? I don't know. It just makes me feel like crap to know that people who I'm with for hours every day don't even like me, and I didn't even know it. I must be completely oblivious to life, or something.
I've realized lately that I don't have many good friends. Yeah, I've got people who I consider my best friends, but in reality, only 2 of them are actually there for me. It sort of hurts, in a way. I know that in a year and a half, when I'm out of high school, none of the people that I hang out with today will matter one bit to me, but I don't want to go through the next year with just a few friends, but apparently that's how it's going to be. I mean, on Friday nights, I go get my nails done, and then stay home and relax for the rest of the night. On either Saturday or Sunday, Dustin comes over for the day, and the day that he doesn't come over, I do chores, and run errands. My mom's commented on how I don't hang out with my friends anymore, and it's honestly because I'd rather stay home by myself than go out with friends. I don't know if that's a good thing, but, it's true. I mean, I don't mind hanging out, but everyones always got plans, and fun for me, is walking around the mall; window shopping; and grabbing a bite to eat at the food court. Or, going and seeing a movie. Or going to the Flea Market for a day. I don't know anyone else who enjoys doing those things.
I dunno. I'm happy with life for the most part, but I'm longing for things to be different.
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Monday
November 26th | 7:23pm
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I realized today how spoiled I really am. I was telling Lyss some of the things I'm getting for Christmas, and she was like, stunned. And then went on to say how she can't believe I get $20 for lunch each week. It got me thinking, and I am spoiled. I don't necessarily love it, but, I can't complain much, either. Yeah, I have the material objects that a lot of kids would die to have, but, I suck ass in school, and I'm not going to have an amazing career to start off with.
le sigh.
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